Simple.

Happiness depends upon ourselves. –Aristotle

To sit and think of all the thoughts this one sentence brings is astonishing. To sit for hours and look at the stars is relaxing. To take in the smell of nature because you’re in it for so long is memorable. Music is my soul. My heart longs to care too much. Why do the people you thought you loved the most in life always end up hurting you? Is it because you saw all the signs before, just chose to ignore them until you were finally hurt and chose to wake up? Is it because it’s easy to always give too much when you never expect anything in return? Is it because money and materialistic items don’t matter to you? Is it because it’s the little things in life like giving that mean so much more to you than the way the world tells you to be or what you need, or what you should and shouldn’t have to make you happy? Is it because you have the simple gesture of consideration for other people always because it’s always been that way your entire life? Is it because you never have to think about being considerate, you just do it automatically? Or is it because you never expect other people to owe you, because a dollar is just a dollar? Is it because you’re strong enough to hold yourself so others that have a hard time holding themselves, and being secure with their life flock to you because they know they can feel secure with you, because they know they’ll get that feeling from you? Is it because they make you their rock instead of their pebble? Does it depend on where you come from?

There’s a million whys as to why people do the things they do and change who they are, or whom you thought they once were; there’s a million what ifs, along with a million hopes and hoping. How does that change for in the future? Do you learn to realize the signs in the beginning or do you continue to pretend they don’t exist. What happens when you know something is not what you thought it once was? How do you heal your heart from that? Do you get up, pick up your stuff, and move on? Or do you forgive that person for the hurt to your heart when you know they might not get it, or might not understand why, because they don’t exactly understand how they’re hurting you. And when you forgive that person that you know you will continue to be disrespected and mistreated by unnoticed, with this sense of ignorance and stagnant between one another, do you just continue on with your life knowing you forgave that person, or do you sit there in sadness because your heart still feels for them. If you’re done pretending, there’s no reason to conform to their style to try and help the situation right? If you’re done pretending, there’s no reason to go out of your way to make them feel better about the situation between one another right? Because you sat there waiting for them to see for so long but the truth is will they see? And if so, when? So then do you write your feelings because you don’t want to create what is unnecessary or do you say something? When is it the right time to keep others’ cares in mind verses defending yourself or holding your own heart first for once? When do you be there to help other people when you have to be there for yourself first? Why does life consist of hardships? Because it’s life- I can tell you that one. Why when you don’t want to care, why does it follow you? Why does it take over your every thought and motion? And when you get away from it, how does it always end up coming back somehow? What’s the right thing to do, right way to handle it, right way to go about the situation? Do you write a letter to that person wishing it was different or that it never had to be this way? Or do you talk to them in person again so that you can break down and cry? Or do you just let it be and go your separate ways ending a friendship like that? But if you choose the third option, it will continue to lie at the back of your mind. So then, what’s the right way?

The right way is this: you put all emotion aside, leave all pride behind, take away all ignorance and no matter if they accept it or not, choose to be sorry and change too; you tell that person what your heart has in mind. Its not one of those things you can plan, or know what to say, Its one of those things that you just step aside from yourself and let the beauty within you and God speak through you. Because you have a heart, because you know your priorities, because you have your foundation, you say sorry. Ask for forgiveness, for all that you know and don’t know you’ve done towards that person. Because you don’t have double standards, you do what is right and that’s all that matters. Because you are loved, you love, and because you love yourself, it doesn’t matter if you may not have completely been in the wrong, just speak- because happiness depends upon ourselves.